this afternoon it is just max and i. he is my mellow one, at least when we are one-on-one. he sits next to me now, sharing my earbuds, swaying his head back and forth to ben folds singing tiny dancer. at one point we both are singing, side-by-side, a little unaware. but then we catch eyes and he smiles and scrunches his face up, both eyes closing fast, his attempt at a wink. i think i am the luckiest to know this little boy, and that there is a whole world out there that he will show me that i have never experienced before.