please don't let me hit the ground

heaven, a gateway, a hope
just like the feeling inside,
it's no joke
and though it hurts me to treat you this way
betrayed my words, i'd never heard, too hard to say
up, down, turn around
please don't let me hit the ground
tonight i think i'll walk alone
i'll find my soul as i go home

each way i turn, i know i'll always try
to break this circle that's been placed around me
from time to time, i find i've lost some need
that was urgent to myself, i do believe
up, down, turn around
please don't let me hit the ground
tonight i think i'll walk alone
i'll find my soul as i go home

oh, you've got green eyes
oh, you've got blue eyes
oh, you've got grey eyes
and i've never seen anyone quite like you before
no, i've never met anyone quite like you before
bolts from above hit the people down below
people in this world, we have no place to go
oh, it's the last time
oh, i've never met anyone quite like you before
oh no, i've never met anyone quite like you before

***

it was the year before the last real school year. the year he left. no more outside scars; i just won't mention the one's inside, those you have to learn to live with. god and i had come to an understanding, it was time to not believe. and the fake walls around me, they just went too far. i found enough of a voice to say no more - to so many things. and then change, change, change. those first few days the silence wrapped around my mouth. like band-aids. motionlessness. but i ripped them all off, and left myself bleeding and raw. and, i spoke up. more and more with every passing day.