Thursday, March 27, 2008

there's a time and a place

keep art alive; art by avtost

this is the viscous heart i hide from you:
gnashing, polluted, hooked to my ribs
like a burr, stuck there and stinging,
and it's only 4:14 in the morning.

those sudden shudders my waking alarm,
then the daily discipline of shutting away that heart,
shambling through the house, touching things,
stroking their shapes as if it could help me

not be the bad sower's daughter each morning:
the pit from a seed he sowed and left to parch,
and no crows would feed on it. so i lived. i don't
want to explain this further, i'm done with it.

but this for you: on the days i hold your books,
read your letters, recall a gaze, the delicate
dangle of an earring, or the throwing
back of a head in laughter,

it's you seeding the first beat into the heart
i open. and as the sun heaves daylight
into the parched tree by my window,
and rats burrow away, when pigeons come

down to feed on dust and pizza crusts, i thrum
the lit syllables of your names on my sill with all
ten fingers, typing them firmly into the brick,
and counting their beats, counting their beats.

"it's been years since i saw you,
but each day i see your face;
and in time you will remind me,
that i wish we were the same."

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