love is not a victory march

i heard this song in the car this morning, driving into the morning sun, and sipping from my still too hot coffee. and the tears started. leave it to leonard cohen's words to always bring me to tears. it just happens, and i usually can't pinpoint the reason, or the actual memory the song loosens, and pushes out of me. i just wind up in tears. it happens, it just happens, everytime, with this song. it is usually these lines that do me in:

"love is not a victory march

it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.
hallelujah, hallelujah

hallelujah, hallelujah

there was a time you let me know

what's real and going on below

but now you never show it to me, do you?

i remember when i moved in you,

the holy dark was moving too

and every breath we drew was hallelujah"

hallelujah ~ rufus wainwright