somebody told him he's good for nothing

murray (live, with atlantic city cover) ~ pete yorn

"and we both know,
that people change,
when truth’s not part of their lives;
i’ve seen the love in their eyes,
don’t say goodbye,
goodbye."

the saddest thing i have ever seen is defeated eyes. the most tragic words i have ever heard are "what if". there is nothing left but regret when you give up a dream without ever giving it a chance. if nothing else, i hope i teach my children that. take a deep breath, hold your head high, swallow your fear, and try. and remember, that failing and falling on one's backside does not have to mean you have given up.

i am reminded of ally sheedy's quote from the breakfast club, when she says "when you grow up your heart dies." perhaps i just refuse to completely grow up, or maybe i just refuse to let my heart die. my dreams, they may be fuzzy and full of obstacles, and some days i wake up with so much disillusionment that i feel they will never be, but i try - fucking hell i try - to keep a hold of my heart, my dreams, my wishes, and all those pieces of who that makes me.

i'm happy to be your fool

keep art alive; art by martin pulaski

"and i was busy finding answers while you just got on with real life,

always hoped you'd be my wife.

but i never found the time,

for the question to arrive;

i just disguised it in a song.

and songs,

are never quite the answer,

just a soundtrack to a life,

that is over all too soon."

a found photograph of a girl who shares my name, back in a time briefly before i was born. catch a glimpse and i start coloring in the gaps and lines, filling in the blanks of where she is off to, and who is running through her mind at the moment of snap and click. the photographer notes that she is on her way to work, but there is more below the surface.

there is always so much more below our surfaces.

you were right ~ badly drawn boy