it wears me out

"she looks like the real thing,
she tastes like the real thing,
my fake plastic love.

but i cant help the feeling,
i could blow through the ceiling,
if i just turn, and run.

and it wears me out,
it wears me out,
it wears me out,
it wears me out.

and, if i could be who you wanted,
if i could be who you wanted,
all the time,
all the time."

i am a bends girl, even though it is the indie-cool thing to love the later radiohead albums. but, i've never been all that indie-cool, and i'm quite alright with that.

this song. every single fucking time i hear it i end up in tears. and that, well that is the sign of an amazing song, at least to me.

fake plastic trees ~ radiohead

song of the day

together we're unlimited

"something has changed within me,
something is not the same.
i'm through with playing by the rules,
of someone else's game,
too late for second-guessing,
too late to go back to sleep.
it's time to trust my instincts,
close my eyes and leap."

i saw wicked last night as part of a work and vendor event. wow. i'd heard it was good, and i knew winnie holzman was involved in adapting the book to the stage, but i did not anticipate that i would love it as much as i did.

*completely inspired*.

defying gravity ~ wicked

song of the day

and crawled off to sleep in the bath

"she asked me to stay and she told me to sit anywhere,
so i looked around and i noticed there wasn't a chair."

because this song makes me smile, reminds me of the happy parts of my childhood, and reminds me of the good in a day. music is my oxygen.

norwegian wood ~ the beatles

song of the day

I sat on a rug, biding my time, drinking her wine
We talked until two and then she said, "It's time for bed"

i'll probably be the last to know

"its always been wait and see,
a happy day and then you pay,
and feel like shit the morning after;
but, now i feel changed around, and instead falling down,
i'm standing up the morning after.

situations get fucked up,
and turned around sooner or later;
and i could be another fool,
or an exception to the rule,
you tell me the morning after."

you forget that i know you as well as i do, that i am not fooled by these behaviors. i am not going anywhere, though, just so you know.

it is only from hurt that we lash out at those we love the most. seems an unfair strategy as we all lose in the end of that kind of a battle. suppose it is not the wise or expected move, but all i am going to do now is open my arms up. we all have pain, yeah? i know i have my share that i am battling. so, just gonna hold tight and stick around instead.

with love, we can get through anything.

say yes ~ elliott smith

song of the day

it might change my memory

"oh i am what i am,
i do what i want,
but i can't hide.

and i won't go,
i won't sleep,
and i can't breathe,
until you're resting here with me."

i wonder if it is possible to tuck in all the feelings a person has into the lyrical refrain of a song. of course, if it was possible, and if it was me, i'd fill a million cd's with how i feel. suppose you would already know that though, wouldn't you?

here with me ~ dido

song of the day

and all your charms

untitled
(mine)

you may think i forget
how your name looks written
next to mine

the way our words overlap
intertwine
in an echo of footsteps
and story tales

the sound of laughter
sewn together
into a blanket of stars

i still re-read the letters

spot you between the lines
an unspoken language
dream speak

you may think i forget
how to make your soul blush
despite the tangle of regret

but love
how could i ever forget

all i have to do is dream ~ everly brothers

i can't hide

yeah, you've got that something,

i think you'll understand.

when i'll say that something,

i want to hold your hand.

from this distance i suppose it could all be taken for granted, mis-interpreted, or mistaken as easy. heart's full and souls known, but from this distance there are so many things missing; like holding hands.

i want to hold your hand ~ t.v. carpio