and when i awoke, i was alone

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five:

mad world ~ gary jules
norwegian wood ~ the beatles

breck road lover ~ the libertines

love will tear us apart ~ honeyroot

wandering star ~ portishead

...and you sing me to sleep...

we create our own cast shadows

"...when a man's past outweighs his future,

then he's a man standing in his own shadow..."

enter a free man ~ tom stoppard

and then smiles cover your heart

"i want to hold the hand inside you,
i want to take a breath thats true.
i look to you and i see nothing,
i look to you to see the truth.

you live your life,
you go in shadows,
youll come apart,
and youll go black.

some kind of night into your darkness,
colors your eyes with whats not there."

not much to say tonight except that this song is haunting me.

fade into you ~ mazzy star

song of the day

heartbreak

keep art alive; art by kelly vivanco

an excerpt from tiffanie debartolo's blog:

"I said yes to the question, but I was mistaken.

What I once thought of as heartbreak was actually yearning—that deep-rooted feeling you get when all you want is a chance.

Heartbreak is a bigger equation.
It's yearning minus hope plus the future.

It's never and forever and nothing all wrapped up into one crushing sensation.
It's when you get your chance and then you blow it to smithereens.
Or worse
someone else blows it to smithereens for you."

***

her words, the way she writes, they resonate so deeply with me.

you were in my dream

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"i think last night,
you were driving circles around me."

being sick turns my emotions delicate and breakable, my vulnerability lying carelessly on my feverish skin. tears come easy, as does anger.

but, your arms around me in the dark, no words exchanged, helped me sleep.
sometimes i think it is in our silence that it makes sense, that in the quiet i can breathe.

coffee on my lips now, and jangled feelings as the day goes on. i really do not feel well, not at all.

your ghost ~ kristin hersh & michael stipe
song of the day

stop playing with my heart

"just try to understand,
ive given all i can,
cause you got the best of me."

always loved the original, and love adam's take on it, too. and the lyrics? yeah.

borderline (live) ~ counting crows

song of the day

i just took a trip on my love for him

"i hear him,
before i go to sleep
and focus on the day thats been.
i realise hes there,
when i turn the light off and turn over.

nobody knows about my man.
they think hes lost on some horizon.
and suddenly i find myself
listening to a man ive never known before,

telling me about the sea,
all his love, til eternity.

ooh, hes here again,
the man with the child in his eyes.
ooh, hes here again,
the man with the child in his eyes.

hes very understanding,
and hes so aware of all my situations.
and when i stay up late,
hes always waiting,
but i feel him hesitate.

oh, im so worried about my love.
they say, no, no, it wont last forever.
and here i am again, my girl,
wondering what on earth im doing here.
maybe he doesnt love me.
i just took a trip on my love for him.

ooh, hes here again,
the man with the child in his eyes.
ooh, hes here again,
the man with the child in his eyes."

the man with the child in his eyes ~ kate bush

song of the day